01:15.5
Well, first of all, I had to raise my kids.
01:19.2
That was my priority.
01:20.7
So conscious effort yun on your side?
01:23.6
That you wanted to propose?
01:24.2
And it's not easy na if you're young.
01:26.3
I got, I gave birth at 23.
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Sakto lang sa mga mga mga mga mga mga mga mga mga.
01:30.0
Because if I didn't stop, baka my career would have maybe been better.
01:35.6
That was a pretty young age to stop.
01:39.0
In our time, yeah.
01:39.5
Noong time na yun, diba?
01:40.8
Kasi parang yun yung time na...
01:41.9
Noong time na pa-peak na daw ako.
01:44.6
Momentum, there you go.
01:45.8
At saka it's hard, parang ilan lang siguro yung mga kabalik na showbiz na...
01:50.5
Kasi if you stop, may may risk na hindi ka na kukunin ulit.
01:54.1
So that was on my mind.
01:55.5
I was prepared na baka hindi na ako babalik.
01:57.9
Pero yung pagpasok mo sa showbiz...
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Ano yun? It's something na gusto mo talaga since bata?
02:03.4
When I was young, I remember kahit 2 years old, 3 years old,
02:06.6
I would watch my mom already sa teatro.
02:09.8
Pero hindi ko nahiligan.
02:11.3
Nag-start talaga ako commercials.
02:13.1
Pero never sa isip ko na naisip na maging artista.
02:18.3
Paano nag-start sa commercial?
02:20.2
May nakascout sa'yo?
02:22.8
Maganda talaga yung iscout.
02:23.5
Parang nakita lang ako dun sa Greenbelt or something.
02:26.2
So doon nag-start?
02:28.7
Kasi doon ako na-discovered.
02:30.0
Then to audition for Berks.
02:34.0
Berks kasi pumalik sa G-MIC.
02:37.0
Ilan taon ko nun?
02:37.9
I was about 15, 16.
02:41.2
Very, very young.
02:43.3
So ever since, parang pinanindigan ko na rin na most of my roles were contra vida.
02:48.4
Nung time na yun na na-typecast?
02:50.1
To be honest, parang it was in my mind na bakit kaya ako na-typecast?
02:54.4
In real life, mas madali pa ako umiyak.
02:56.6
Pero at the same time, for me, work is work.
02:59.3
And I wanted to...
02:59.9
I wanted to earn talaga.
03:00.8
At a young age, I also got to live on my own.
03:04.0
Parang I was like 19, ganyan.
03:06.6
Ba't nag-live on your own?
03:08.3
Because parang na-realize ko na...
03:10.7
Because middle class lang naman din yung mom's side and dad's side ko.
03:14.0
Actually, they got divorced when I was early.
03:16.7
So parang there was a time na I wanted to provide for myself.
03:20.2
So noon nag-divorce sila? Ilang taon ko?
03:23.2
I don't even remember the exact age.
03:24.8
Baka mamaya, 8 siguro.
03:28.6
Paano yung naka-affect sa'yo?
03:29.9
Parang kinikwento ng mom ko.
03:31.4
Sometimes I had that, you know, teenager angst.
03:35.4
I admit that also.
03:37.0
Maybe because I was confused.
03:38.9
And parang siyempre, when you're a kid, you want na buo yung family.
03:42.7
Although I became...
03:43.7
I'm close to both parents.
03:45.8
Pero palipat-lipat ako.
03:47.8
So parang imagine at a young age, parang experiencing that.
03:51.1
Bata mo naging independent mo?
03:53.3
Or you just have to be?
03:54.9
I had to be also.
03:56.1
Parang I don't know if that was the reason kung bakit gusto ko.
03:59.9
Like Isa before, it was because of the divorce of my parents, the separation.
04:04.8
Pero right now, na nag-mature na ako, I believe yun talaga yung reason.
04:08.5
I wanted to do things on my own.
04:10.7
That's why I also made good choices in life.
04:13.5
I also made some not good choices in life.
04:16.2
And I admit that naman.
04:17.4
Nag-rock bottom talaga ako.
04:18.7
I had to learn the hard way.
04:21.4
Ano yung point na rock bottom?
04:23.0
That time, for example, when I was starting my career,
04:25.3
I don't know, maybe 3 to 5 years na yun my career.
04:28.2
Even producers went up to me.
04:29.9
Directors saying na,
04:31.2
pag ganun na yung career mo, Karel,
04:38.1
What if hindi ako huminto?
04:40.6
Pero pinapili kasi ako ng previous ko if career or siya.
04:51.8
And then I chose to stop.
04:54.1
And then after, when I chose to stop,
04:56.1
I was in the middle of a show.
05:01.1
I was already like a lead role na there.
05:03.5
Imagine lead role, tapos magsastop.
05:05.3
Parang thinking about it, parang wow, grabe, the opportunity was there.
05:08.6
And then a lot of people thought na nga na nag-US ako.
05:11.7
Or, nabuntis ako.
05:13.6
Hindi ako nabuntis when I stopped.
05:15.3
I got pregnant a year after I stopped.
05:17.8
That was because you were in a...
05:20.5
Parang given a situation that you had to choose.
05:23.8
Someone asked you to choose.
05:25.7
If it's your career or the relationship.
05:30.8
But you chose it.
05:33.7
But of course, no regrets.
05:35.4
Right now, I mean, I have two beautiful kids.
05:38.0
By the way, after that, I quit showbiz.
05:41.3
And then I got pregnant a year.
05:43.9
My previous relationship, we lasted for about three years.
05:47.1
But we had two kids na right away.
05:49.2
When I ended the relationship,
05:51.1
kasi it wasn't okay na.
05:53.3
I had to think because of course,
05:55.7
the kids are with me.
05:58.6
Meron pa bang tatanggap sa akin?
06:01.7
Or even to love me for who I am with my kids?
06:05.6
Lahat na isip ko na tatanda na akong losyang.
06:09.0
Ano kaya pwede kong gawin pa?
06:11.0
So actually, nun that ended.
06:13.1
And then I had my two kids na.
06:15.0
That's when everything went slowly.
06:17.2
Paano mo na-navigate yung time na yun in your life?
06:19.9
Ah, there was a time talaga parang I just hid from the bubble.
06:23.1
Then I tried to just, you know, work.
06:25.4
I did my sideline.
06:27.4
Ah, lahat na ng rocket na pinasok ko.
06:29.6
In terms of business.
06:30.8
Nag-start ako ng mga ano.
06:31.9
Nag-sell ng mga, yung mga accessories.
06:34.5
Tsaka yung mga ano.
06:35.5
When I didn't have my own brand yet.
06:37.2
Yung mga lipstick, lipstick.
06:38.6
Just to make ends meet.
06:40.9
So naging hustler ka?
06:43.2
Nag-hustle ka talaga for your two kids?
06:45.8
During that time, you had to be strong?
06:48.0
Or else baka kung ano na mangyari sa'yo?
06:50.1
O wala kang option para maging mahina?
06:52.0
Kasi there are two lives depending on you.
06:54.3
Yeah, they're my, they're my strength talaga.
06:56.7
I mean, without all those experiences,
06:59.2
na nangyari sa'kin,
07:00.8
I wouldn't be that strong siguro today.
07:03.4
Just realized na lahat ng bad situations
07:06.9
that I experienced
07:09.2
opened new beginnings na now.
07:13.3
Kasi hindi ko na-expect naman na magbabalik ako sa TV.
07:16.8
Hindi ko rin na-expect na may makikilala ako
07:19.1
who's now my husband.
07:20.6
Did you know that my husband met my two kids
07:23.4
one and a half and two and a half years old.
07:25.1
So talagang siya na talaga yung tumayo din bilang,
07:31.2
And fast forward also, now we have, ano na, four kids.
07:36.2
Paano nagbago yung life mo when you became a mother?
07:39.2
Lahat talaga kasi.
07:40.2
Everything in my mind revolves around them eh.
07:44.2
It's not myself anymore.
07:46.2
I remember earning a lot yung when I used to have cars na,
07:50.2
tapos sarili ko lang, nakabili na ako ng LV, ganyan-ganyan.
07:54.2
Nawala yung lahat when I gave birth.
07:56.2
Yeah, talagang, talagang lahat talaga.
07:58.2
It's all sa kanila na nakatutok.
08:02.2
And it changed me also, you know, mentally to be strong for them.
08:06.2
And I had to be the better version of myself for them
08:10.2
para rin when they're older,
08:12.2
para hindi nila ma-experience din yung mga bad experiences na nangyari sa akin.
08:20.2
Kanina ka humihiram ng lakas kapag mahina ka na nung time na yun?
08:24.2
I really pray, I really kneel down and cry.
08:27.2
You know, sometimes sabi nila yung pag magpapray ka lang pag may problema.
08:31.2
I also think if there's small blessings.
08:34.2
Pero grabe talaga si Lord.
08:36.2
Still very thankful until today.
08:38.2
Kasi lahat ng mga dreams ko in life,
08:41.2
I don't know if I'm meant to be a mom or what,
08:43.2
pero lahat ng dreams ko, ito yun ngayon.
08:45.2
My family right now.
08:47.2
Pero during that time, I didn't think that pa.
08:50.2
Pero I'm very happy kasi ito yung dream ko pala.
08:53.2
So right now, I don't...
08:55.2
The fame or glamour is just...
08:59.2
Ay, naiyak tuloy.
09:02.2
As a mother, emotional ang mga nanay.
09:06.2
But when you look back, can you imagine?
09:08.2
You became a mama at 23.
09:10.2
You got separated at 25.
09:13.2
You became a single mama at 25.
09:15.2
Paano mo na-navigate yun?
09:17.2
I provided for two kids.
09:19.2
Then, I started work again.
09:22.2
Did you know na yung mga first workers,
09:24.2
yung mga first work ko after,
09:26.2
in the middle of the breakup,
09:28.2
until towards that relationship,
09:32.2
babaeng hampas lupa.
09:36.2
Ito yung kontrabida ni Alex doon.
09:40.2
Kung napanood mo yung mga episode namin doon.
09:42.2
Pinapanood namin yun.
09:43.2
So that was the start when I was getting back on my feet during that time.
09:46.2
Oh, wow. May pinagdadaanan ka na pala noon.
09:49.2
Trying to be strong.
09:50.2
And I wanted to earn.
09:53.2
So, paano ka sa set?
09:55.2
Alam nila, Alex yan.
09:58.2
Miss Susan Rosas before.
10:00.2
Kita ako umiiyak.
10:03.2
Si Alex, kare, okay ka lang.
10:04.2
May ganun akong moments.
10:06.2
Umiiyak ka sa set?
10:07.2
Kasi it's painful to experience that during that time.
10:09.2
Pero I had to be strong.
10:11.2
Tapos kontrabida pa ako noon.
10:13.2
Ang hirap na pinagdadaanan kang personal,
10:15.2
tapos nagtatrabaho ka.
10:16.2
Tapos kontrabida pa.
10:18.2
Yung hahampasin ko si Alex,
10:20.2
ilalagay ko siya sa bal din ng tubig.
10:22.2
Pero yung opposite yung nararamdaman ko,
10:24.2
yung role ni Alex.
10:25.2
Parang feeling mo ikaw yung ganun.
10:27.2
Bumbog na bumbog in life.
10:28.2
Dali ako umiiyak pero I can't do that on screen.
10:31.2
Buti hindi nag-close yung heart mo to love.
10:35.2
So ano, that time,
10:38.2
I was just at home.
10:39.2
I didn't want to go out or meet new people.
10:42.2
Ganun ako parang na-depressed and had anxiety.
10:45.2
Tapos one of my best friends na girl,
10:47.2
she used to work at my husband's restaurant.
10:50.2
Now, she used to promote everything.
10:52.2
Every Thursdays in that place.
10:53.2
So ako, samaan mo naman ako.
10:55.2
So I just went there.
10:56.2
Tapos inintroduce ako kay Sean, my husband now.
10:59.2
I didn't know na he owns that bar pa.
11:01.2
Pero ever since that, hindi na kami nag...
11:04.2
Kinursukan na niya?
11:06.2
Parang ganun nangyari.
11:07.2
Pero hinoon naman, I had kids.
11:09.2
Mahirap ba mag-open up again?
11:11.2
Kasi di ba pag na-broken hearted ka na?
11:13.2
Kasi in my mind, ayoko na mangyari talaga ever.
11:17.2
Ayoko na ma-heartbreak or if I get married,
11:21.2
ayoko yung sa-separate, yung mga ganun.
11:24.2
What made him na nasabi mo parang ito na yung right person for me?
11:28.2
Because he loves everything about me and my kids.
11:33.2
Hindi pwede, in my mind, I don't want to even date someone na for me lang.
11:38.2
It has to be a package.
11:40.2
He proved himself talaga.
11:42.2
As in, imagine mo, hindi ko na-expect until we got engaged na,
11:46.2
2016, and then we also got married that same year.
11:49.2
Siya kang galing na hindi ko na-expect.
11:50.2
Siya kang galing na hindi ka na nagahanap ng, you know, life partner.
11:56.2
Tapos dumating pa rin, no?
11:58.2
Dumating, dumating talaga.
11:59.2
So I can't believe it until now.
12:01.2
Ang tagal na namin and we're going strong.
12:04.2
And it's the right balance talaga kami as husband and wife.
12:07.2
We really, ano, and of course as a father to our four kids.
12:11.2
Napagdaanan ko yung mga not so nice pero grabe naman yung kapalit.
12:16.2
Oo, di ba? May ganun pala.
12:19.2
Iri-reward ka pala.
12:22.2
Doon sa mga test na pinagdaanan mo, this is the reward.
12:25.2
And I'm sure meron pa along the way, there were gonna be challenges, fair Lord.
12:29.2
Oo, di ba? Grabe.
12:31.2
Siguro yung saving grace din yung kids.
12:36.2
If not for them, ang daling mag-give up.
12:38.2
Grabe. And we're so blessed that they're so, you know, mabait.
12:41.2
They're so, ano, grabe. Especially right now na they're already in their teens.
12:46.2
Kaka 15 lang ng isa.
12:48.2
May teenager ka na.
12:50.2
Eh di ba pag teenager, it requires a different kind of parenting?
12:53.2
Buti nga eh. Kasi before, di ba, my mom said I had that angst before. Kasi siyempre I was confused and they separated early.
13:00.2
Yung anak ko wala. Thank you, Lord.
13:03.2
Ang babait. Ang babait. Yeah.
13:05.2
Yeah. So thankfully, and they're doing well in school. Ganyan.
13:08.2
Ano yung one thing na lagi mong tinuturo sa mga anak mo?
13:13.2
I just tell them all the time to always have, you know, respect other people.
13:17.2
And then in life, there are really going to be people tsaka mga situations that you might not be comfortable with.
13:26.2
You gotta be strong. You gotta be smart.
13:28.2
So I teach them how to be, you know, strong mentally.
13:31.2
And of course, always pray. Always be close to the Lord talaga.
13:36.2
What does your husband give you?
13:38.2
Peace and security.
13:40.2
Aside from the love that's there, of course, because no matter what, he loves us so much. Me and the kids.
13:46.2
Important for me is parang I don't have to worry.
13:50.2
Maybe someone's watching us right now who's going through that painful separation or painful relationship na…
13:59.2
Right. In the past.
14:00.2
Or they're going through right now.
14:02.2
Or yung mga single moms.
14:04.2
Marami yung mga single moms out there.
14:06.2
Where do I go from here? Yan yung tanong nila.
14:08.2
Kasi there are many faces during that time na I think na wala nang sino ba yung mag-a-accept sa amin and who will love me.
14:15.2
And who will love me fully with and love my kids wholeheartedly.
14:20.2
But you know, it will just come the time that hindi mo na-expect.
14:25.2
At hindi mo hinahanap.
14:26.2
Hindi mo hinahanap. Pag hinahanap mo, baka wala din mangyayari.
14:30.2
It will just come. Just be patient.
14:32.2
And huwag i-priority yun.
14:35.2
Because like with my situation, it just fell at the right…
14:39.2
I think importante din na nasa right maturity, right place, right time.
14:45.2
Right person na ano siya.
14:48.2
He's ready. I'm ready. I'm healed.
14:53.2
Siguro the Lord will just say na if you're ready na.
14:56.2
He'll just give it to you whatever your desires are or your dreams.
15:02.2
He'll just give it to you when He thinks you're ready.
15:04.2
Keep the faith. He will give you something greater.
15:06.2
Don't give up. Don't give up.
15:08.2
So what's the greatest lesson you learned about love?
15:11.2
The love is there so you have to learn how to love.
15:14.2
You have to learn how to compromise.
15:17.2
And no matter kung ano man yung pinagdadaanan na challenges,
15:22.2
you really have to work as one.
15:25.2
Kasi there's gonna be times na mag-a-argue kayo.
15:28.2
There's going to be times na hindi kayo magkakaintindihan.
15:31.2
But at the end of the day, as in, kayong dalawa lang ang makakasolve.
15:36.2
If both of you know that God and your marriage is that important,
15:41.2
nothing can tear you guys down.
15:44.2
If your kids are one day all grown up, ano yung gusto mong ma-discover nila about their mother?
15:52.2
I'm sure they know that I'm a very strong person.
15:55.2
I want them to be as strong and resilient as me.
15:58.2
And of course, they'll always feel the love because of their mom.
16:03.2
They see it nga right now sometimes when they randomly lang.
16:06.2
They'll say, Mom, thank you so much for working hard.
16:09.2
Mom, thank you for this, ganyan.
16:11.2
E di na iiyak ka?
16:12.2
Oo, syempre nanay.
16:14.2
Nakakaiyak yun pag nag-made you sila.
16:16.2
Na hindi mo na-expect nga na naman.
16:19.2
Biglang may times na minsan ganyan ka lang, parang idol ka lang.
16:23.2
Biglang sasabihin nila yun.
16:27.2
Without me having to prove it.
16:29.2
Because I guess naturally lalabas nga that you have to show them.
16:34.2
And you have to raise them seeing their mom na wow, pinagdaanan niyo to.
16:38.2
But she's so strong.
16:39.2
She's doing everything that she can for them.
16:43.2
At saka ano, na-appreciate ko when my family also appreciates me.
16:48.2
Parang I feel so...
16:50.2
After everything I've been through tapos they're gonna say that.
16:54.2
Kaya the small words of appreciation, it means the world.
17:03.2
Kaya we celebrate mothers.
17:05.2
Selfless mothers.
17:10.2
Lahat give-give na lang.
17:11.2
Parang sabi nila lahat na mawala sa akin.
17:12.2
Mabigay ko lang sa mga anak ko.
17:16.2
Saludo din tayo sa mga single moms.
17:34.2
Alam mo nagulat ako.
17:35.2
Kasabay mo pala si Bea sa batch?
17:38.2
Parang a bit younger lang siya.
17:40.2
Parang one or two years.
17:41.2
If I'm not mistaken.
17:42.2
Kasabay na din si La Pia.
17:45.2
Kasabay niya si La Pia, si La Pauline.
17:48.2
Doon ako na-discover yung commercial.
17:50.2
Yan ang ating parang common denominator.
17:55.2
Alam mo pag tinitingnan kita ngayon, mas tumapang yung kamukha mo na yung mami mo.
18:02.2
Nakikita ko mukha ng mami mo.
18:03.2
At saka dati usa pa light light makeup.
18:05.2
Ngayon na nag-prepare mo.
18:08.2
Ngayon kasi yung dami ng uso may contour na ngayon.
18:12.2
Uso pa nga before bleached brows.
18:13.2
Tsaka manipis yung kilay natin.
18:17.2
Shimmer, shimmer.
18:20.2
Parang bright eyes.
18:23.2
Until now sabi ko pwede po pala.
18:24.2
Namaintain nga yun eh.
18:26.2
Yung may shimmer dito.
18:27.2
Kasi you look awake.
18:29.2
Yan ang goal na yun.
